Thursday, October 13, 2011

Staying Positive

The past month has been a little rough on me for numerous reasons.

Davis went back to his old sleeping habits of waking up at 2 a.m. and staying up until 5 a.m. - not fun, especially since he had been sleeping so well, so to go from a great sleeper to about 3 weeks straight of no sleep really did a number on me.

We are back on track with his sleep the last few days, with the exception of the other night, so things are looking up there.

When he doesn't sleep well I have issues actually falling asleep for some reason, after he does a few days of waking up I start fearing going to sleep.  This goes back to when he didn't sleep at all, ever, for well over a year.  It was so bad that I was just afraid to sleep.  I know, weird.

I've also been overwhelmed by friends announcing pregnancies.  I know I say I can't handle another child anytime soon, but seeing all my friends with kids the same age as Davis getting pregnant for their second does sting a bit.  I'm over it now, but it did have me down for a few weeks.

I have also been busy with school.  My 3rd class started last week and 3 classes is so much harder than just 2 classes.  I didn't think it would be, but it is.  I think I just had a system down for the 2 classes and adding the 3rd in threw me for a loop.  I've only got 8 weeks to go though so I know I can do it.

We also received great news about Davis.  The behavioral pediatrician that specializes in autism that diagnosed Davis last March with mild autism took away the diagnosis and declared Davis wasn't on the spectrum at all.  I never believed Davis was on the spectrum anyways and I've got my own opinions on this doctor, despite my feelings we started doing intense therapy which consisted of speech therapy and occupational therapy 2 days a week for 2 hours each session.  I've now dropped back to 1 day which is going to be nice.  I know you are probably thinking that 2 days a week doesn't sound like a lot, but it is, it was a huge committment.  We met with our team of early intervention people from the county yesterday and a few of them hadn't seen Davis since before he had his tonsils out in June and they were beyond shocked at him.  They believe and I believe that the majority of Davis' issues were because he had sleep apnea from his enlarged tonsils.  I don't think it was a coincidence that he started talking like mad within 2 weeks of his tonsilectomy.

I've also declared that it is time for me to start doing a few things for myself, for real, not just dreaming about it.  I have to workout, I just have to, I worked out every single morning of my life until I had Davis and my weight and changes to my body since having Davis have been a huge problem for me.  I am making it my goal to get to the gym and workout at least twice a week.  We have gone once this week and it felt so great to not be pushing a stroller with a 2 year old in it as my workout.  I listened to my music and watched the news while sweating my ass off (literally) and it felt great!!

I re-started Weight Watchers 2 weeks ago and have already lost 4 lbs.!!!!!  Go Me!!!!

Our dishwasher broke last week and our new one will be installed tomorrow!!  Woot Woot!!

1 comment:

Jen and Justin said...

Jill - i know it's too last to say this to you...but when i read the part of this post about you being down for a bit on the 2nd pregnanicies of your friends i thought instantly - JILL! DON'T LET THAT SH*T GET YOU DOWN!! and here's something to think won't feel down when they are changing two kids in diapers as you skate through your 3rd/4th year with a little boy who is past the terrible twos/three's phase! hee hee :)