Sunday, February 26, 2012

And the Verdict is....

Let me start this out by telling you the story my urologist told me, about the worst patient she had ever seen with my problem.

This patient was a local law enforcement officer, a female, who urinated every 30 minutes.

The device was a complete success for this woman.

I remember thinking to myself, that poor woman, she pees a lot, way more than I do.

Actually, I pee that much.

I've just gotten so used to peeing so frequently that I didn't even realize how often I was going.

I know that sounds weird and I think you'd have to be in my position to even understand that statement.

Peeing a lot has become a way of life for me, after over 8 years of it, you would just get used to it.

While I know it isn't normal, it has somewhow become my normal.

I peed 27 times in 24 hours.  I consumed 40 oz of water and 16 oz of coffee.  Not an abnormal intake of fluids, at all.

I have learned from my diary that my brain is being signaled to empty my bladder when it has 50 cc of fluid in it.  Most people are signaled at 200-300 cc of fluid, which is why the average person only goes no more than 6 times a day.  The total amount of fluid urinated throughout the day should be at minimum 1000 cc.  So say you urinate 300 cc each time you go and you go about 4 times a day, that is normal.  I am however only expelling 50 cc each time I go, so to get to 1000-1200 cc for the day, I am doing it over 27 times a day. 

I can honestly say I'm a little sad by this fact.

I can also say I can't get started on this journey fast enough.

I'm not sure what I'll do with myself if it works and I'm not living in a bathroom.

Like I said this has become my normal for the last 8 years.  It will probably seem abnormal for me to not go to the bathroom this much.

What will I do when the bathroom and my bladder isn't on my mind constantly?

What will I do when I walk into a store and don't scan the place for the bathroom the minute I walk in?

My next post will be on the device that has been suggested I have implanted in my body.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

My Pee Diary?????

I was asked by my urologist to keep a diary for 24 hours to track my fluid intake and how many times I urinate.

I didn't realize how bad my problem actually was. I just guessed I urinated 12 times a day.

I was way off.

I am only 12 hours into it and have already urinated 18 times.


I feel like crying about it.

Now I will say I listened to my urologist when she told me I had to consume 64 oz of fluids a day so I know that is why I hit such a high number urinating.

But still, that number is out of control.

This is why I only had been taking in 18-24 oz a day, I did that to cut my trips to the bathroom down.

I can't wait to get my tests done and move into the next phase so I can have my life back.

More on that when I have more time.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

I'm Bringing Up Maternity Photos Again

I'm starting this out by saying, I love maternity sessions, when they are done in such a way that you don't feel like your looking at porn.

You know what I mean.

Half naked husband, kissing half naked wife's belly.

I find it borderline creepy.

Today I saw a photo of a girl, shirt pulled up, pint of ice cream in hand, now this is all cute.  Pregnant mama has to get her ice cream.

But did she need to have melted ice cream smeared all over her belly??

Friday, February 17, 2012

5 Years Ago

1. I was planning my wedding.

2. I was NOT on Facebook.

3. I had no idea what a blog, blogging or blogger meant.

4. I had zero plans of having a child anytime soon, 35 seemed like a good age to start a family, which means if I stuck to that I would still have 2 years to go before ever considering getting pregnant.

5. I was working in Florida at this time of year at the job I had before I took the hardest job in the world.  I miss that old job.

6. Maizy was only a year old.

7. I worked out every single morning at 5:30 a.m. and freaking loved it, I thrived on getting up early.  Now 5:30 a.m. seems like a horrible time to wake up.

8. I got a letter about attending my 10 year highschool reunion.

9. I had much longer hair.

10. We had just moved into this house and only planned to be here 5 years.

11. My grandparents were still alive and just as ornery as ever. 

12. My only worries in the world were, worrying about what I would wear out that weekend, what kind of tablecloths I should have at my wedding, and if I should drink beer or martinis.

13. I drove a 2007 Honda Accord. When I bought this car I got a deal, I wanted a 2-door, they didn't have one in the color I wanted so the sales guy discounted me a 4-door in that color. I remember him saying as I drove away, you will like that 4-door, trust me, life changes, even though you don't think it will....

Boy was he right.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Valentines Day Follow Up

I know you are all dying to know what we did.

We had McDonald's for dinner.

And we rented Breaking Dawn Part 1 on VOD.

Nothing says I love you like a shamrock shake, large fry, quarter pounder with cheese and watching Bella Swan birth a half vampire baby.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Potty Training Day 1

Me: Davis, look, a big boy potty seat!!

Davis: A boat!!!!!! Yay!!!


Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Happy Single Awareness Day

I am not a huge Valentine's Day person.

Never have been.

However, my husband and I's first date just so happened to take place on February 14, 2004.

It was terrible.

Only because neither of us thought about what date it was.

Have you ever gone to a restaurant and tried to get a table with no reservation on Valentine's day? Especially a Valentine's day that falls on a Saturday.

Let me tell you, it ain't happening, unless you want to wait 3 hours.

We made light of it, got drunk and went to dinner the following weekend.

Hard to believe that was 8 years ago.

Now we are married, have a kid and pushing 40...

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Our Neighbors Must Think We Deal Drugs

We got another new car last night.

Don't ask.

Jeff came home with a 2012 Acura TL.

The lease on his 2009 was up in 5 months.

I guess he was just antsy and needed to look cooler than me.

And I am pretty sure the neighbors are thinking WTF.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Dermatologist = Angel

The last 6 months or so I've been feeling like I'm going downhill.

I've visited my family doctor several times regarding this and seem to be getting nowhere.

I'm kind of frustrated.

Today I had an appointment with my dermatologist and I think she might just be my savior.

She walked in, looked at me and said, oh honey (this is how she talks, very sweet), you don't look good.  Is your thyroid enlarged?  It looks enlarged.

I said, well as a matter of fact, I feel miserable and I proceeded to tell her my symptoms:

1. Insomnia

2.  Extreme exhaustion

3. Frequent urination, despite drinking no more than 16 oz. of fluids a day and by frequent we are talking upwards of 25 times per day, which keeps me awake.  I've been upped on my Vesicare from 5 mg to 10 mg with zero change.  Frustrating.

4. Foggy feeling in my head

5. Extreme thirst, this is probably because I withhold fluids.

So my dermatologist, who I went to see for my acne, is concerned about my health.

She is ordering bloodwork on me to check insulin levels and my thyroid.

I also have an appointment with a urologist in 2 weeks.

All of this has really taken it's toll on me.

I try to pretend like nothing is wrong and put on my happy face, but really, inside, I'm a wreck.

I'm tired of feeling like this.

I just want to feel like ME again.

I don't want to live in my bathroom and I just want to fucking sleep.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

On Our New Car

Yes, we bought a Mercedes.

This is a shock to us too.

We never in a million years ever considered buying a Mercedes.  Ever.

Let me tell you our list of what we were seeking out to trade my Jeep Grand Cherokee in for, Honda Accord, Honda CR-V or a Honda Pilot.

We started leaning more towards a car over an SUV because we are only having one child and my Jeep Grand Cherokee was the mother of all gas hogs.  It was so bad.  Here is how bad it was.  On Tuesday, I was on empty, I put $20 into the tank because of the possibility of trading it in.  I wasn't about to spend over $70 filling the tank up.  By Wednesday, I was on empty again.  GAS HOG!!!  We spent at least $150 a month on gas for that vehicle and I'm a stay at home mom that drives nowhere.

My husband had vacation days so he got bored and started searching for new cars.

He ran across a 2008 Mercedes C300 with 17,000 miles on it, one old lady owner, pristine condition, almost too good to be true.  This was honestly, the lowest mileage used car we have found in the 4 months we have been looking.

He texts me about it and says, do you want it?

I'm thinking, what is he talking about, I want a Honda Accord.  I have some strange attachment issues to Honda Accords, I have owned 2 of them and they are fabulous.  I get all teary eyed when I see one drive down the road because I miss my last one.

I text him back and say, I don't know, maybe.  Bring it home.  I thought we were looking for an Accord.

He brings it home, I drive it.  Eh, I like it, but I'm always eh, about cars anyways.

Before I know it we are trading the Jeep in and driving home in a Mercedes.

I feel kind of weird driving it.

Like other people are looking at me and thinking, oh, a Mercedes ::insert eye roll::

But it was seriously an amazing deal and we got a lot on our Jeep trade in, we got so much on that trade the finance girl was shocked.  She said people come in here with Jeep Grand Cherokees all the time because the are a dime a dozen in this town and they NEVER have this much equity, NEVER. 

The Mercedes is fancy shmancy.  It is like driving a spaceship, I have no clue how to work anything, it is completely loaded with every option you can get, I need the manual just to start the thing, haha.  You can push a button and talk to some lady and tell her what you want to do.  Like play CD 1 and she will play it.  Or play track 4 and she will play it.  Or go home and she will Navigate you home.  Davis likes that, he repeats everything I tell her, it is funny.  I feel like she is the next best thing to Siri. It also has a DVD player....what?????  Of course it is very safe and will only play the picture if you are driving 3 MPH or less since the screen is in the front of the car, so we probably won't use it that much.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Trading Up

We couldn't pass this deal up.


I drive a Benz!!!!!


1. Is it May??  Seriously, this weather is whack.  Did I just say whack?  Yes, I did and this weather is just that.  We have had one snow to speak of  and it was barely anything.  I'm afraid we are going to end up getting hit in April with some sort of freak blizzard.

2. My husband might trade my Jeep in today....Maybe.  We always look for cars to trade it in for, but fitting our requirements is hard.  The requirements are not being more than 4 years old and having the same amount of miles as the Jeep (22,000) or less.  This is hard to do, considering most cars that are 4 years old are going to have at least 40,000 miles on them.  He managed to find one that is 4 years old with LESS miles than my Jeep.  We love the Jeep, we do, but we love imports, think Honda, Acura, etc... so that is that.  We will see.  I'm not 100%  sold on this because I get attached to my cars, I'm weird.  I did drive potential new car yesterday and I gotta say, it is nice.  I will not reveal what it is unless we actually do buy it.

3. I got a new washer and dryer, woohoo!!  Why is it that every single year we do our taxes we end up having to buy lame stuff, like appliances?  We have replaced 3 major appliances over the last 4 months.

4. What is up with Demi Moore?  She must have gone over the edge when Ashton left her.

5. I'm down to a weight that I thought I'd never see again.  I'll tell you what it is because I'm so damn proud.  132!!!!!  Now, this isn't my goal weight, I'd still like to lose 10 more pounds, but I have come a long way in a year and I cannot believe it!!!  I bought a pair of jeans in the fall and they are too big now!